People say i'm not ready for a relationship...but i want one so bad!?

so i'm 16 year old bi girl, and in the end of september i broke up with my last girlfriend. She was the one i gave everything to. i loved her dearly. and she cheated on me only a few days after i lost my virginity with her. But i think i'm getting better finally. But every time i go out with friends i always end up getting drunk and making out with at least 3 people every night. And i love it! Yet i crave a real relationship again. I just feel so alone. Well people say that if you search you won't find and when you stop searching you will find something. I don't understand that. Never have. I'm too impatient to NOT search(without looking desperate ofc xd) still i never seem to find anything! what can i do??